“I resolve to live with all my might while I do live. I resolve never to lose one moment of time and to improve my use of time in the most profitable way I possibly can. I resolve never to do anything I wouldn’t do if it were the last hour of my life.”Jonathan Edwards
“When you get your,’Who am I?’, question right, all of your,’What should I do?’ questions tend to take care of themselves. “Richard Rohr
Last night I was listening to a Marissa Peer talk about changing your money mindset. She does this hypnosis type exercise with you to help you identify the moments in your childhood in particular in which your negative beliefs were created. I cried when I was done with it. I could see so clearly where I had created beliefs for myself that just weren’t true. If you would like to try it for yourself, you can find it at this link. Carve out 30 minutes for yourself and go deep:)
This exercise reminded me of Suze Orman’s book, “Suze Orman’s Financial Guidebook. Put the 9 steps to work”. I had used it almost 20 years ago when I found myself positively drowning in debt. I didn’t get through all 9 steps which is probably why I didn’t stay debt free but I did get through steps 1-3. Suze also believes in changing your money beliefs in order to change your financial future. I remember doing the exercises at the time and being shocked at how much I misunstood about money. While I accepted that I needed to change my money mindset and made the effort to do, I clearly did not internalise my new truths because, without even realising it, I slipped back into my old beliefs and started behaving the way I did when I got myself into debt in the first place.
So here I am, going through the motions for a second time. I am glad I get to do it all again because I think I am in a better space to get it right for good this time. I get why I have made the choices I have made and, I believe, that this time I truly understand what fears I need to overcome to make my new truths my reality from here on out. I cried again today going through steps 1-3. I cried because I was sad for the girl and the experiences she had that led her to adopt those beliefs. I cried because I am so relieved that I am no longer that girl. I am a woman who is worth so much more than that little girl realised. I am grateful that I was able to touch base with her today and let her know that it is ok to release those beliefs. That in her young mind she didn’t know how to see the experiences for what most of them were. Most of the time, people were doing their best that they knew how and it was never a reflection of her worth.
I know this is the right thing to focus on right now because even the version of the book that I have been searching for for the last few years just popped up as soon as I started looking. It was definitely not there the last time I looked. I had an American version and a South African version that my friend had bought me at the time. I had resigned myself to using the American version today when low and behold, there was my SA version instead :). I would say wish me luck on getting this right this time but I know I have got this so it’s all good!
If you would like to get your hands on a copy of Suze Orman’s book, here is the link. I would highly recommend it. Her system works if you work at it.
May you be happy
May you be healthy
May you be safe
May you live with easeLoving Kindness Meditation
Have a wonderful week! Bye for now 🌼