When we pray we get out of our own way_ Gabby Bernstein 

I came across this quote in Gabby Bernstein’s book, The Universe Has Your Back.  While intuitively I knew it was true, I have always struggled to let go and let God.  In the last few weeks, it’s become a must. 

My son is in his final year of high school.  I have spent the year stressing about his marks and whether he will qualify for university or not.  In fact, everytime he ticked a box, I found something ne to stress about.  What I didn’t realise was that I was just adding to his stresses. He was already overwhelmed by the shear volume of work he was suddenly faced with and all the decisions he needed to make about his future. For the first time since his first term in high school, his marks plummeted.  My nerves!  Despite this, I have have decided to rather take a step back, get on my knees and let God take the reins.  

Since doing so, I am calmer and so is he.  In fact he seems happier. He even dances around the house these days and all this when he had a physics paper coming up. I have to admit that I was pleasantly surprised.  I don’t know what his trial marks will look like or even his finals, but I am working on accepting that the consequences (good or bad) are his to face. My job is to support him and help him find a path that works for him.

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A few days ago, he accompanied his cousin to one of her nail clients.  The client happened to be a recruiter who gave him a feel for what the job market currently looks and the anticipated trends for the next few years.  (I believe that was God helping him along.) This has helped him give more thought to what he should study. I have downloaded a course on Udemy to help him get a feel for what the course material for his chosen field will be so that he can make an informed choice.

I have to admit that giving up control I actually never had in the first place, has not been easy.  Knowing that God will carry him through this helps a lot and I have to keep reminding myself of it every time I feel myself becoming anxious. I do also accept that the outcome may not be what I want for him.  Phew! This motherhood job is really not easy. 

 That’s it for today. Thanks for popping in.  Don’t forget to like and/or comment if you enjoyed reading this post, found it useful or have pearls of wisdom you would like to share with me and others. 

Happy Anniversary to Me:)

If not now then when?

I woke up to a fabulous message from WordPress. Nine years ago today, I posted my first blog post!

I remember how nerve-wrecking putting myself out there was. I was convinced no-one would even read the post! Thank you to those that did, and to those who have followed me, supported me through their comments and likes and to those who have just read my posts. I am so grateful.

Cheers to the next 9 years at least and to the wondeful people I will continue to interact with and to the new people I have yet to meet on here. 🙂

Everything is Going to be Alright

A few years ago, I was in a bit of a panic.  I couldn’t get hold of my cousin, who was going through a bit of a challenging time.  I was concerned that something had happened to her.  I called my uncle as I knew he had been in contact with her recently.  He is known to be a wise old soul, and he told me not to expect that something bad had happened.  Everything will be alright. It turned out she was ok, and had just had an issue with her phone.  There really was no need to worry.  My uncle had planted a seed.

The past two months have been quite challenging for me.  Our department at work went through another restructure 10 months after the last one.  I, once again, received a section 189 letter informing me that my role had changed significantly and I would therefore need to reapply for it.  There was a possibility that I could be retrenched.  I was once again anxious, but this time it only lasted for a week or two.  I got anxious because I have been a terrible interviewee in the past and dreaded going through it all over again.  I called a friend who is known to be the best interviewee in the team and asked for her help.  I felt a lot calmer after sitting with her and focused on what was in my control.  Certain events happened in the company that resulted in me not having to reapply for the job.  I believe that was God working in my favour and in the favour of a few other colleagues who had also faced losing their jobs and were now safe.  In fact, the outcome was better than I could have predicted.

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Another source of anxiety for me was my son’s eighteenth birthday. For whatever reason,  I was desperate for him to have a really good day. Once again, I focused on what was in my control, and everything else just fell into place.  He had a fantastic day!  I had focused on getting one event right that day, but God had bigger plans, and he ensured that my son’s entire day was amazing.  I was so happy for him and so very grateful to God for making it happen.

Since then, I have noticed a few other occasions or situations where everything has just fallen into place, especially when I just focus on what’s in my control.  There is really nothing to worry about, whether we want to believe it or not,  everything will be alright.  It often turns out to be better than you had envisioned.   My wise old uncle was right. 

Are you a bit of a worrywart, or have you learned to trust that everything will be okay?  What made you start believing that things will always work out? Let me know in the comments.

Thanks for reading.  Bye for now.