It was so weird. I had such a good night’s sleep last night, yet today I could not stop yawning. It felt as though I hadn’t slept at all. I couldn’t understand it, and then this evening, it struck me…this is probably due to the release of tension from having my son home last night.
It happens each time my son goes away. I think I am okay, but actually, there is this low level of tension that I constantly carry with me. It’s like the air that fills a balloon and keeps its surface rigid. It doesn’t feel like anything, but it’s there. And then my son comes home, and all that air in my balloon is released, and I feel relaxed and at ease again, and all I want to do is sleep.
He has left again, so I guess my balloon will start inflating again soon, but tonight I will sleep like a baby (hopefully).
I am grateful that I did get to spend time with my son today. We had a great lunch at the mall. I was pleasantly surprised that I had a decent-sized discount voucher available to me at the time of paying, so I am very grateful for that too.
Day 21. Letting go with faith was definitely today’s theme. Thank you, God, that my son and his friend had an amazing day today, and thank you for keeping them safe as well.
Two Things I Am Grateful For
I am grateful that my son could add another new experience to his bucket list this year. He had spoken about wanting to attend a Sharks rugby match over the last few months. He called it out as a goal for next year. He must have wanted it quite badly because God decided to move the timeline up. I am also really happy that he was able to experience it with one of his best friends. Of course, letting him attend without me took a bit of faith on my part. A lot of alcohol flows at these events, so my only prayer was that they didn’t encounter any drunk people who were also looking for trouble. Thankfully, God heard that prayer, too.
My son has been blessed with many firsts this year. His firsts included a cruise, a trip overseas watching his favourite soccer team play at their home stadium, and even seeing amazing exhibits at the museum in London. He saw some of the exhibits in his textbooks and was thrilled to see them in real life. He used to enjoy visiting the Pietermaritzburg Museum as a pre-schooler, so I was thrilled to know that he hadn’t lost his love of museums. I am grateful to everyone, and especially God, for making all of my son’s new experiences possible this year. He has really been blessed.
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One Moment of Joy
Just having my son home again has been a real joy. I have barely seen him today but it doesn’t matter. What matters is that he is sleeping in his own bed tonight. Tomorrow, he is off again, so once again, I have to loosen the reins and have faith that he will be ok and enjoy his time away. When he was younger, I used to worry that he would enjoy his time away from me so much that he wouldn’t want to come back home. How much more self-absorbed and insecure could I be!🫣 I know better now. I know now that while he might not miss me when he goes away because he is enjoying the moment, he will always love me as much as he always has, and he will always be grateful to be home when he returns. I guess I am also just preparing myself for the day he goes to university. I only have two more years with him at home.
Well, that’s it from me today. Thanks for popping by.
Hello there! Wouldn’t you agree with that quote? I don’t believe any of our friendships are accidents. Every one I have had over the years has positively impacted my life, even if I didn’t think it at the time.
Two Things I Am Grateful For
My very good friend Megan. Since God has blessed me with her friendship, I have done nothing but outgrow my fears and enjoy new experiences. Thank you, Megan. This afternoon, she invited me to dinner. We had a great meal at a Greek restaurant we had not visited before. We also shared dishes that we had never had before, like mousaka. It was also a fantastic way to celebrate the official start of our leave!
My colleague was offering complimentary tickets to a rugby match. My son has often spoken about wanting to go to a game so I took my colleague up on his offer. I am really grateful for my colleague’s generosity. My son gets to tick off another new experience this holiday.
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One Moment of Joy
Part of our meal this evening was roast chicken. It tasted like my mother’s roast chicken. I was so surprised. That first bite transported me back to my mum’s house for a split second. I could even feel her presence. It was an amazing experience. It also reminded me how much I miss her. I am not sad, though. I am grateful to have felt her presence, even though it was so brief.
That’s it from me for today. Thanks for popping in.
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