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“Hello…Is that you ego?”

I have spent this past week wrestling with a problem that I face at work. Despite been on leave this week, it kept raising it’s ugly head in my thoughts, trying to rile me up. Those that know me we know this is usually easy to do. This time though, I am teaching myself to deal with this type of issue differently because I have come to realise that this is just my ego talking.

Much has been written about the ego throughout history and yet, despite our knowledge of it’s destructive power, we continue let it take over our lives. I have always considered myself to be a humble person and thought that I was doing my damndest to not let my ego get the better of me. I did not want to be seen as self-serving or self-important or arrogant and yet somehow, despite my best efforts, my ego has often crept in and taken over in a situation causing things to go horribly wrong. Now it is easy to point a finger at the next person and blame them but the reality is that, even though they might have a role to play in the destruction, so do I. A bitter pill to swallow.

Back to the work problem. This problem has been on going for a while now with no end in sight and sometimes seems to be getting worse. On Tuesday I seethed the entire day. I can’t even tell you what triggered it since I was on leave but there I was, consumed by my anger as per usual. In the evening I called my friend to vent and because she always has pearls of wisdom to help me see things from a different perspective. At one point she mentioned that “we need to get out of our own way”. The seed settled on fertile ground. A little later I dialled into a webinar for the Mind Power course I am doing. One of the participants gave an example of how she applied the principles of the course and one of the things she mentioned is that “we need to get out of our own way”. Well, my antenna went straight up! This was no longer just a piece of sage advice from my friend, it was a message from the Universe!

I started to really think about this. How the heck am I standing in my own way in the first place???? Now here’s the thing, when you have questions like these, it is seldom that the answers come to you immediately and directly. Have you noticed this too? Anyway, I went to sleep and let my subconscious do it’s thing. The next day I started the new week’s Mind Power exercises and in so doing, the answer to my question started to reveal itself. I wrote down a statement that made a lot of sense to me and contemplated it. As the week went on, more layers were peeled away while listening to a video about strengthening faith by Gabby Bernstein on IG and, through my daily Mind Power practice and prayer, I eventually came to realise that my ego was the source of my problem as well as my lack of faith and that is how I am standing in my own way. At least now I have a root cause for the problem. My next step is to overcome it. I clearly am not there yet as last night I opened Gabby Bernstein’s book, The Universe Has Your Back, and what’s the 1st instruction on the page…yip, you guessed it…”GET OUT OF YOUR OWN WAY”! 🤣🤣. This is going to be an interesting journey but I am looking forward to it. 😁

One thing I have to come to realise is that it is not possible to have faith and let the ego have it’s way at the same time. Either you have faith in your creator to work through you or you let the ego in and let it try and control the situation. I am also learning that the ego loves to take credit for God’s work. In my rage, I was ranting about all the good I had done at work and my friend reminded me that it is God who is working through us and not us who do great things. She is right. It reminded me that one of the things I admire most about Tyler Perry and Steve Harvey is that they never take credit for their successes. They always give God the Glory. Always. Perhaps that is the lesson for me in all of this. I guess the work problem is not my obstacle to overcome after all and one to be handed over God for Him to work his magic on. My obstacle to overcome though, is letting go and letting God. I need to give ego, and it’s need to control, the boot.

That ego is so sneaky! It tries to insert itself everywhere. I could go on and on about the ego and how sneaky it is but I would recommend reading books like:

⁃ The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle

⁃ A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

⁃ The Ego is the Enemy by Ryan Holiday

⁃ Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstein

⁃ The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein

They are many more. These are just the few that I have open (Don’t judge… I will finish them all eventually😜) Of course, don’t forget to pray about it. The answers will be revealed to you if you are listening and watching. Always.

Hope you are washing your hands and sanitising religiously and social distancing to the max to keep yourself safe. Don’t forget your mask as well. Stay safe!

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